I am Mama:Part 2

berjaya klik New Post lagi.but, i am pretty sure i might have these in more than 2 parts, so people (if there are people out derr reading these bahaha), pplease bare with me ok?

i promised that i will telltale on how becoming a mama changed me 360degrees right?well, it did. everytime i become very emotional or being very melancholy, i'll start to rant in this 2nd language.close friends will notice that hihi. but beware, saya seorang TESLian yang suka break the rules so ada juga itu bahasa kita keluar.biasaaa.. haha..

macam rajin blogwalking, makin terinfluence cara menge-post guna nombor2 taw.macam senang bah kan?melaluutttt..hahaha..

so, okhay, how becoming a mama changed me?

1.i become more patient.betul, saya menjadi sangat penyabar.ok, di sini mungkin ada  sesi konfesi(?).saya ialah sangat panas baran.mudah meruap.betul, jarang ada keadaan di mana saya boleh bertolenransi kalau ada benda yang doesn't go my way, or doesn't go according to my plan/likings. kalau irritated lagi, bah di sanalah tu mulut jadi pedangnot mentioned pandai tu mau kasi ampas2 barang.MasyaAllah.. T_T.saya selalu berusaha merubah kelemahan yang satu ini,dan alhamdulillah, as Alisha enters into our lives, i become more patient.THAN EVER.

tidak cukup tidur? ... sabar...

penat mendukung Alisha demi mendodoikan sebab dia bad mood bila kurang sihat? ... sabar...

tidak dapat tengok rancangan best2/kegemaran di tv sebab asal mau duduk depan tv, cepat2 terfikir kena cover tidur sebelum Alisha bangun for her next BF and diaper change... sabar..

resah sebab tidak makan itu dan ini sebab Alisha has a weak stomach (mudahan bila semakin besar, perut Alisha semakin 'kuat' Ameen..).. sabar..

sekarang ni, kalau ada benda yang bikin saya marah, kadang2 tu adalah juga marah2 tapi marah2 manja ja.most of the time, saya malas mau marah.macam sudah 'terbiasa' bersabar.

Alhamdulillah..

2. hubungan saya dan ibu  makin rapat. okhay, gini..orang cakap, bukan saya cakap orang cakap (baca ikut accent Abon.nda tau sepa ABon?bah ndapalah.).. kalau anak perempuan sama muka dengan mama nya, 'panas' and akan selalu bertelagah walaupun hakikatnya, dorangla paling serasi.contradicting?tell me about it.kalau bapa sama anak lelaki pun gitu tu kunun.tapi  kalau mama sama muka anak lelaki, nah, paling ngam itu.orang cakap la bukan saya cakap.

so.. 

my mum n i minutes before akadnikah.sama kan muka?haha

i know my 'hard-headed'ness had hurt my mum in many ways T_T and i hope she forgives me.janganlah jadi macam tanggang nauzubillahminzalik. but but but.. now that Alisha is with us, and it is this iron lady that helped me when I was almost on a nervous breakdown for not being able to properly breastfed Alisha during her first 2 weeks. it is her that stayed up for hours and let me rest to help put Alisha tp sleep when hubby n i failed to do so. she climbed the stairs every morning to prepare my hot meals during my confinement eventho i know her knee is hurting (glad no one is at home but me and Alisha.no one sees me crying rite now.. T_T)..

and after all those years we were like magnets of the same pole, almost always pushing each other apart for being keras hati masing-masing mau berkeras, as i reach my big three -o, mum and i are the best of friends, talking and gossiping until the wee of hours like youngsters. now, we share everything. a day is not  complete if we dont update each other with our 'what's up?'.

Alhamdulillah.

Being a mum brought many miracles into my life. semoga kamu dan kamu dan kamu semua yang bakal jadi mama juga akan rasa keajaibannya. betul, magic tahu?

Alisha is squirming. macam kejap lagi diap bangun ni. haha..nantilah saya bloggeroid then saya upload gambar si kecil lagi ah. 

till then, don't forget to call or sms or have at a least a simple conversation with your mum today.buat yang sudah kembali bersama PenciptNya, sedekahkan Al-Fatihah dan doakan beliau.

*senyum sambil teringat, tadi sempat tengok Junior  Masterchef, ya Allah kalau sudah jadi mama ni, tengook budak2 tu asyik nangis ja.cover2 depan my sister malu kedapatan nangis bahahaha.